Broken

Yesterday I got hit by a car on my bicycle. For some reason a feeling came over me and I let the woman, who tboned me at 30 mph, go. I felt fine, but today I felt the unbearable pain. Not only in my body, but in my heart. My marine is elsewhere training and all I want is for him to hold me....then all the pain wouldn't feel so bad.

Until Next Time...

The Moment of Truth

I finally told my parents today that my Marine and I are getting engaged. My marine is going to talk to my father first but we wanted to let them know ahead of time because its going to happen in such a short period of time...

My father took it well, but my mother was very inquisitive. I guess that is ok, right?

I just want this to happen so I can be with my Marine forever :)

Can a Lonely Heart Survive?

Day one into this month long 'adventure'. Everything about my life reminds me of the wonderful man that I long to hear from. I've been trying to fill my days with a multitude of activities to expedite the time that must be spent alone. I recently volunteered at a boarding/day care for animals, somewhere I intend to work until my Marine and I get married and start our beautiful life together...

I have so many exciting and wonderful plans for my life, that are soon to come after our time apart. So many reasons to smile and be thankful for the blessings I posses in my life. Yet, there is a sadness clouding my head and my heart. Thus keeping me from enjoying said blessings. I'll just continue to remind myself that I am lucky to have such a wonderful man in my life and that not everyone gets the chance to love like this....


Until next time....

1st Day Rule

Every time he leaves my heart feels like it crumbles to pieces and my eyes feels like never ending waterfalls....the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my entire life is watch him walk away.

Today is the first day after my Marine left for CAX (training) in California. Just knowing that he ISN'T just a phone call away brings a sadness to my soul. I won't hear from him for a little over a month. Although there is so much to look forward to when he gets back, I find my heart aching. I feel sad and useless....this is the "1st day rule".

After the first day, although still difficult, it's mildly easier to cope with the distance between our hearts for every day that passes from the last time that I saw him....gets closer to the next time that I will.

Until next time....

My Introduction

To the blind eye I am an ordinary girl, with an ordinary life and ordinary experiences....but to those who know me, I'm a Marine's Girl. The girl who waits months for a single kiss that makes the world stop. The girl who waits for him with no questions asked and does this with a smile on her face. People label me insane for making such a commitment with no guarantees, I label it "with love"...

By no means is a woman NOT dating/married to a Marine not good enough....it's merely a different lifestyle that only one type of woman can understand. You have to be tough, and patient and understanding. All of which are a necessity to survive the grueling times that are thrown in your face. The moments that are spent with the one you love are cherished like no one could ever fathom, unless you've been through it.

Behind every Marine there is a woman...she is always with him, heart and soul. She feels his pain, sorrow and love. Every minute they are apart her heart is aching yet she continues to wear a smile...she is everything she can be for him: his rock, his support...she stands faithfully beside him in even his darkest days. Their relationship will reach great heights, cross many miles and conquer many challenges. All because of their love for each other.

There are many things I am not and few things I am, but I'm proud to say that I am a Marines Girl.

Until next time...